So my stepmom has moved in with me and my dad, and has just gotten her esthetician license and will start working in a salon! I am seriously blessed to have a cool stepmom. She cooks for me ALL the time (good Chinese food too... mmmm). So I feel like a kid again.
I'm sick at home with not much to do, so I'm updating xanga. I'm hoping it's just a standard cold, and not the MRSA my patient had on Thursday / Friday.
Randomness... I miss wushu. It's been a couple months since I started school and have been too busy to go back. I will again... when I have time. When is collegiates... March? Collegiates, anyone? Hehe.
Optimus Prime is my 4th favorite hero. You can guess the first three. Ever since I was a kid, I loved Transformers. I'm so glad they used Peter Cullen's voice again this time around, because without him, he just wouldn't be Optimus. I like how he encapsulates justice and integrity, and always does the right thing.
Yesterday I didn't feel like worshiping God. I sang "a simple song of
love" to Jesus. The flame inside my heart seemed small, just a flicker,
and while everybody else was experiencing God, I wondered why I was
different. I often wonder why. I didn't feel him; he seemed far, not
near.
As I sang this simple song, Jose began
to sing out the words (to the effect of), "I don't know how to worship
you, what tunes to play, what lyrics to sing, what beat to drum, but I
give you my best, it's all I can do right now." Ian later said he saw a
vision of a little scrawny homeless kid with barely any clothes on,
picking up whatever scraps of junk he had around him, gather them
together and tie a bow around it like a present, and give it up to God.
And then he saw God receive the present, and then reveal to the kid his
inheritance, an endless city of golden splendor as far as the eye could
see.
When he shared this, I teared up. God values my offering of love toward him, however inadequate it seems. He cherishes it. Wow.
What does it mean to be saved? Jesus and the apostles often said "Repent and be saved," but what is true repentance? Is it as simple as believing that Jesus died for your sins and accepting his sacrifice, or does it require a change of heart and lifestyle?
This is a sobering message for those who profess to know Jesus. "The greatest lie in the American church is that if you've prayed a prayer and asked the Lord into your heart, then you are saved."
